I aim to please.
I don't live to pleased people but I don't mind doing it knowing it's a kind thing to do. Takdalah kind tapi kengkadang tu kita pun harap orang pun pleased kita for certain reasons. Aku dah 5 hari demam dan separa tempang sebab ezcema. Dah 4 hari aku tak tengok cermin knowing I look uglier when I'm sick. Hari kelima baru tengok sbb curious lol. Entahlah, for past few days aku langsung tak happy. It's like my sense of positivity hilang dibawa ombak. Aku pening kepala sangat. Rasa nak commit sucide but hasya is not ready for hell. Back in high school aku rasa aku buat ramai kawan, I thought I was nice. I didn't mind people asking me a favor scshot hw pe semua. Tolong ah mana taktau. Tapi entahla, bila tengok balik insta feed diri sendiri baru sedar how small aku punya bulatan persahabatan. Yang kekal cuma the real ones, hamfagash. Entahla, maybe aku tulis ni sebab aku rasa lonely. Unlike all my hamfagirls, I don't have someone to talk to when I'm at home. ...