I aim to please.

I don't live to pleased people but I don't mind doing it knowing it's a kind thing to do. Takdalah kind tapi kengkadang tu kita pun harap orang pun pleased kita for certain reasons.

Aku dah 5 hari demam dan separa tempang sebab ezcema. Dah 4 hari aku tak tengok cermin knowing I look uglier when I'm sick. Hari kelima baru tengok sbb curious lol. Entahlah, for past few days aku langsung tak happy. It's like my sense of positivity hilang dibawa ombak. Aku pening kepala sangat. Rasa nak commit sucide but hasya is not ready for hell.

Back in high school aku rasa aku buat ramai kawan, I thought I was nice. I didn't mind people asking me a favor scshot hw pe semua. Tolong ah mana taktau. Tapi entahla, bila tengok balik insta feed diri sendiri baru sedar how small aku punya bulatan persahabatan. Yang kekal cuma the real ones, hamfagash.

Entahla, maybe aku tulis ni sebab aku rasa lonely. Unlike all my hamfagirls, I don't have someone to talk to when I'm at home.

I really can't be sad right now sebab nanti it'll cause my immune system rendah pastu kuman masuk bla bla bla sistem pertahanan kena kuat bla bla bla so lets skip to the part we're waiting for.

So ada satu malam ni aku mimpi aku kena humiliate dengan this one teacher everyone's afraid of in primary school. Cikgu tu marah aku sebab angkat kerusi letak kat tempat dia balik pastu cikgu tu suruh aku berdiri, aku dahla tempang?! Bila aku sedar aku tgh mimpi, aku denda cikgu tu balik. #thuglife

let the disable do what they wanna do hahaha