Insignificant pain

This is not a sympathetic post but it is related to pain, not an insignificant pain.

I’ve been dealing with my disease my whole life. Its not that bad I swear tapi nak buat macam mana its uncured-able.

There’s so many methods I’ve tried. Recommended stuff. So many years trying to fix myself. But as I grew older, it got worst but again this isn’t a sympathetic post.

So its been 5days been warded. Everyday there’s 3 times food coming in, 2 times baths, empat kali check suhu, berat and blood pressure plussss there’s also 4 times injections per day ye kawan-kawan, four timezz :’) Twice a day jugak, doctor akan check (of course), for improvement. Tak buat apa pun, just a normal check up :)

And everyday they’ll ask me these same questions.

“How are you feeling?”
“Does it hurt?”

Knowing me, I’m always fine.
“I’m okay”, I replied.

But every time that same question were ask, my mind couldn’t help saying, “which one? which pain are you asking?” Of course it hurts, it does. everyday. but how can I feel it anymore. Its a pain I learn to get used to. Are you asking about the pain I get from sitting or the pain I felt while eating or it is the pain knowing if one day if it finally heals, the scars still remains.
Ha maghoh maghoh (marah)*tapi sis tak marah ok*

This morning when I last reply I’m fine, that some wounds are finally healing. Desperately wanting to go home actually, the doctor wanted me to stay another day.

“She doesn’t know her pain.” -she said to the nurse. (in a good way la just incase ada yang baca dengan nada garau lel) Part of me are curious, doesn't most of her patience feel their pain? And a second thought of mine thinks that some of them maybe just forget that pain was supposed to effect you.

I couldn’t imagine those who had it worst than me. Berapa kali diaorang makan hati dengan sakit. Berapa lama diaorang tunggu to no longer be stuck to whats mentally suffocating their truest desire.
Bet they have a strong mind tho.

So kehadapan readers yang masih setia membaca. How’s your heart? How are you dealing with your pain so far? Are you hiding it? Don’t.

If you’re dealing with pain tak kisah lah mereka yang going thru a rough heartbreak, you’re somehow depressed or maybe recently you lost everything.

Don’t ignore your pain.
It matters. It may look like it’s hard to heal but its not a disease. You’re cure-able.

Don’t lose yourself in pain, you are everything you got. There may be surroundings that will help you but on sleepless night they won’t be. You are all you have. Be strong for yourself. Have faith.

Pain is pain. Altho it hurt, it shouldn’t bring you down. Some pain are meant for lessons yknow.

Don’t let pain defines you.
Even Liam Payne.

Ok tak lawak.
Boleh stop baca dah sekarang.

Thanks! :)