yours truly, hasya.

Sometimes life doesn't turn out Like it should Sometimes we say then We did the best we could With what we had With what we lost In the fire, in the flood In a storm that took more Than it should In sleepless nights Cold and alone waiting Under the fading streetlights In a homeless home Somewhere under the stars So far away Where your lost dreams fly Just out of reach Now died, somewhere in the dark Like a bird with a broken wing

I dreamed of u last night, i was standing infront of hajarul aswad. I remembered being speechless n not knowing what to do. But indeed i am blessed for the dream i had. Selama ni mmg nak Allah kurniakan mimpi-2 camni. Samada dapat jumpa Rasulullah saw atau dapat rasa kiamat or dapat tunaikan haji&umrah. Why? Supaya aku sedar that there's a heart full of sins that needs to be recovered, that needs Allah's help to gain pahala for syurga. What a beautiful blessing. Entah. Selama ni mmg tak rasa a sinner like me dapat mimpi pengalaman yg unexpectedly wonderful. Well kaabah, wait for me. I'll be there. I'll be there for Allah. And i hope when the time has come, I'll die in my sujood infront of u kaabah. Love, hasya.

Kadang-2 bila kita dah lama tunggu, kita ingat Allah tak takdirkan benda tu dengan kita sbb kita percaya yg Allah ada better plan utk kita. Tapi hakikatnya kadangkala juga Allah beri apa yg kita nak dgn syarat sabar sebagai ujian. Aku ada ezcema. I never thought there is a cure. Tak pernah mengharap aku akan pulih sepenuhnya. Sehingga harini. Terdetik dihati aku nak mencari. Akhirnya aku jumpa. I cried. I never felt so blessed in my entired life. Belum cuba namun harapan ku naik setinggi tinggi langit dengan peringatan if Allah wills then what shall be will be. Mungkin aku hampa kalau apa yg aku baca mitos belaka but its okay. Am not going to lose hope in Allah. Ezcema bukan cancer. Sangat berbeza. To you, mungkin aku nampak over en berlagak cam diri ni Hazel Grace yang ada lung cancer and cant do things that could easily lead her to death, but no. Dont talk unless you've been in my shoes before cewah. Ezcema pun ada dia pun do's and don't+s Jadi to those yang rasa cam dia ...

Sakit . Kenapa kita sakit? I mean, why do we do things if we know we'll get hurt at the end. Macam pisau, kita tahu pisau tajam. Kita tahu kita boleh terluka en bila pakai tapi kita guna juga kan? Sebab apa? Kita perlu guna, ya la nak potong cili bawang pe semua to make good dishes en. Bila kita accidentally cut our self that doesn't stop us from using it again kan? Sama macam bercinta. Kita tahu bercinta akan lukakan kita tapi itulah kita, manusia, we crave to fall inlove thinking that it is going to to lead us to happiness.  Tapi in order to make good dishes, to feel happy. Accident happens. Hati kita terluka sementara mmg akan recover, but if kita guna pisau tu all over n over again n buat kesilapan yg sama jari tetap akan terluka :) . dalam dunia ni, there's no such thing like happiness 'je' sebaaaab happiness comes with sorrow. at the end kita akan tahu sama ada dish kita "sedap" ataupun "tak". But don't worry. You'll be fine. This i...

I thought I could be there for everyone. To only be that one person who cheer people up but people might no realize how u struggle to fit it, making someone smile after a whole night of crying, to give the best advice to those yang futur. I understand how 'Augustus Waters' felt. To want to be remembered. To want to be a roller coaster that only goes up. Hakikatnya, kau kena terima the fact that they won't be there for u as much as you were there for them. Some of them would just push you away

"And then she told herself, "Stop being so weak. Grow up and get over it." And then she never felt anything again." -anonymous.

Aku. Aku belajar bukan utk diri sendiri tapi utk orang lain. Orang lain yang dah banyak buat macam-2 on trying to help. abah, mama, cikgu and those people yg selalu ada :) Entah,aku mungkin tak penting and aku cuma one of a thousaaaaand people on earth but i might be the only hasya in someone's life en haha I hope i get good result so i can tell my love ones that their hardwork had paid off. Am grateful to have such great people in my life. Sangat grateful. Harap Allah swt tak buat aku lupa diri dgn nikmat ni :) Akhir kata, may everyone achieve their goals in life ♡ ok bye