Orchid

-
This is a post about a person who havent exist yet but had already been loved, by me.


Well, recently i had a dream about this kid named orchid. Not saying that its my real child or anything but i sincerely loves kids. So tak kisahla anak orang ke anak aku, its just a dream. Another happy dream.

I remember being busy (cewah) with stuff i dont remember doing then this girl, orchid came to me. Tarik baju suruh duduk jap, dia ada benda nak confess so sis pun duduk ah kejap. I dont remember her face tho but i remember knowing how guilty she felt. She did something bad, she said.

I swear that guilty face look so innocent like aaaaah i ken die melting. So habis ja dia confess, dia minta maaf, hugs and went straight up to bed. Well i guess she's my daughter en? Hahah entahla tanak put hopes.

But for a moment there, in that dream. I didnt realise i was a mother. I mean who would have thought kan, sis baru 19 tahun kuttt diploma pun tak dapat lagi ni cemanooo

I bet most women dreamed on having a child like this kan? pure and innocent? But entahla, kalau tengok kids nowadays, they're so caught up dengan gadget kan? Entahla, tak nampak comel la budak pegang iPad. Em busy ngat pasaipa? Ada assignment ka? hewhew

Ok soalan.
Have u ever imagine dapat anak degil cam diri kau? Well i do. Like almost everytime I think of kids hahah. Degil, stubborn. I'm both. Maybe I'm kind to the world but not to my parents. We all have our bad days en. Time pms ah terutama lel.

Well orchid might turn out to be me one day. There might be days she'll hurt me with her words just like i did to my mom. But there will also be days where we're going to draw a smile on each other faces. Life isnt always rainbows and butterflies remember that.

So this is it, the end of this post. Akhir kata orchid isnt the name i wanted for my babygirl one day. Its just a random name from a random flower. Maybe yelah kut it probably be her name but hey sis baru 19, its too soon to talk about this no no namau namau
Ok wak, ite rak lu. Thanks for your time! Have a great life! Assalamualaikum:)

Comments

  1. UnknownSeptember 11, 2017 at 6:55 AM

    Adopt saya sis!. Beri saya duit belanja and i can survive in this cruel world mommyyyy

    ReplyDelete

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

I deleted a post

-
I haven't been writing in so long. I haven't stop tho. Only here I did. I guess I just thought my writing is bad every time I see this blog. But long live the past, here's a new post. If you read my post on my favorite book. I just needed to say that I've deleted that post although I really really love that book. I just thought that I didn't describe the book as deeply as I admire it, as deeply as how I wanted people to understand what this book meant to me. If you never read that post before, that book is called "The Goodluck of Right Now" by Matthew Quick. It was my one and only special book. "I n this book, is a guy who write/talks to the real Richard, telling him what he felt, how was his day and how life works for him after the death of his beloved mom. He wasn’t embracing his emotion, he is more to just letting the real Richard know. Updating him everyday. He wasn’t the type of guy that ask stuff, he was quiet, he was the definition of...
Read more

update.

-
at night like this in my teens i would write, nonstop; hours and hours until my level of satisfaction is reached. now, its been awhile (again). I might start again, stop again. but now as i started, I'd like to thanked you for stalking me. and for taking the time to read this? thank you for that too. in beginning of March, i finally worked at a convenience store since it has been my college dream to do so. working while preparing for my final year project, let me just say that i never been more productive. it has been tiring and satisfying all at the same time. all the stacking, being a cashier, waking up before subuh to go to work, how tiring. i didnt also get an off day since i have class on that particular day but what kept me going was the satisfaction to achieve a dream i chose to have. something to cross out of the list yknow. despite this dream achieving, ive been thinking of new dreams lately. future plan after college perhaps? the only thing i kept avoiding. ...
Read more

Fear of Fashion

-
Image
If this is a book, my first paragraph would be the synopsis so right now you are given the choice to put the book back on the shelf or sincerely keep reading. Thank you :3 Okay, first thing first why fashion? I was forced to haha i can draw and that's the only reason. Sense of fashion? I have non. But I can draw and that was enough to persuade my mom. Despite my inner rebel, I proceed. I was this girl yang buat kerja asal siap. Counting days bila nak grad and God knows how many times I thought of quitting. Tapi aku tahu this feeling is temporary. I know for a fact that most student feels this too even those that took other courses. Quitting seems easy every time I think of it. Give up, takyah hadap.  But the fact after giving up, you have to start a new is more intricate. Why cant u just finish what u started before? What if u cant finish the new one too? how can you proceed? The reason I thought of doing this post because I am currently creating myself a turni...
Read more