Fear of Fashion

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If this is a book, my first paragraph would be the synopsis so right now you are given the choice to put the book back on the shelf or sincerely keep reading. Thank you :3

Okay, first thing first why fashion? I was forced to haha i can draw and that's the only reason. Sense of fashion? I have non. But I can draw and that was enough to persuade my mom.

Despite my inner rebel, I proceed.

I was this girl yang buat kerja asal siap. Counting days bila nak grad and God knows how many times I thought of quitting. Tapi aku tahu this feeling is temporary.

I know for a fact that most student feels this too even those that took other courses. Quitting seems easy every time I think of it. Give up, takyah hadap. But the fact after giving up, you have to start a new is more intricate. Why cant u just finish what u started before? What if u cant finish the new one too? how can you proceed?

The reason I thought of doing this post because I am currently creating myself a turning point to love fashion.

My inner fear legit bought a book on how to love fashion because I know I loveee reading so I hope what i love doing ni helps me on what I end up spending my 3 years with which is Fashion Designing. So here I am in my semester 4 going to 5. Entahla nak, Idk how to proceed post ni. Idk what is so hard for me to tell.
I don't know if its the fact there’s no turning back or is it the fact yang I'm not planning to do fashion in the future. Or it is if I don't do fashion, what will I do?

But wait lets not overthink.
To not think you didn't do enough is wrong.
To feel confused sometimes is okay, you have made it this far. You’ve done so much. And you’ve made it. There’s more Semester to go. And alhamdulillah you’re almost there. This is just a phase we had to go thru.

Everything is going to be okay people, dont worry!

What happens after grads let just let faith decide. I think we’ll know what to do when the times come en?

So guys rasanya post ni tamat kat sini.

If you guys are wondering is fashion hard? No, everything u need to know will be taught. Just rn you are currently reading a post from someone with fear she created for herself.

If you’re planning on continuing your study in fashion, go ahead. You're going to love it :)

Akhir kata, here’s a photo of my final project fd1 (fashion design1) yang tak seberapa if nak compare dengan classmates lain but alhamdulillah cukup untuk lulus hahahah

 

Thank you for not putting this book back on the shelf right away. Bye! (~n___n)~

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