update.
at night like this in my teens i would write, nonstop; hours and hours
until my level of satisfaction is reached.
now, its been awhile (again). I might start again, stop again. but now as i started, I'd like to thanked you for stalking me.
and for taking the time to read this? thank you for that too.
in beginning of March,
i finally worked at a convenience store since it has been my college dream to do so.
working while preparing for my final year project, let me just say that i never been more productive. it has been tiring and satisfying all at the same time.
all the stacking, being a cashier, waking up before subuh to go to work, how tiring. i didnt also get an off day since i have class on that particular day but what kept me going was the satisfaction to achieve a dream i chose to have. something to cross out of the list yknow.
despite this dream achieving, ive been thinking of new dreams lately. future plan after college perhaps? the only thing i kept avoiding.
i do have plans, and working isnt the only thing. just this dilemmas, well now is the only thing that matters. "you dont get to wait for the future and the future wont still be the future when it comes. it becames now." as i always said.
in my university life, i put aside all the things i would like to become,to be doing for a living. or if i was not meant to earn money from it, atleast i want to do it. for me, even its only a month.
but now that im interning, i know theres no such way. you re not gonna get that 5 months after spm back. adulting has its way of killing dreams.
but I believe living is not that, positively. maybe it takes time. we will get there but we must not stop trying. everyone is trying their best, for something that is enough or to reach higher if capable. I just hope despite heartbreaks and challenges, we shall not stop trying.
we are all a work of progress, we can do it. even if at times we drained, we'll be okay. let that dream of your be alive and insyaAllah, you can achieve it anytime soon.
:)
until my level of satisfaction is reached.
now, its been awhile (again). I might start again, stop again. but now as i started, I'd like to thanked you for stalking me.
and for taking the time to read this? thank you for that too.
in beginning of March,
i finally worked at a convenience store since it has been my college dream to do so.
working while preparing for my final year project, let me just say that i never been more productive. it has been tiring and satisfying all at the same time.
all the stacking, being a cashier, waking up before subuh to go to work, how tiring. i didnt also get an off day since i have class on that particular day but what kept me going was the satisfaction to achieve a dream i chose to have. something to cross out of the list yknow.
despite this dream achieving, ive been thinking of new dreams lately. future plan after college perhaps? the only thing i kept avoiding.
i do have plans, and working isnt the only thing. just this dilemmas, well now is the only thing that matters. "you dont get to wait for the future and the future wont still be the future when it comes. it becames now." as i always said.
in my university life, i put aside all the things i would like to become,to be doing for a living. or if i was not meant to earn money from it, atleast i want to do it. for me, even its only a month.
but now that im interning, i know theres no such way. you re not gonna get that 5 months after spm back. adulting has its way of killing dreams.
but I believe living is not that, positively. maybe it takes time. we will get there but we must not stop trying. everyone is trying their best, for something that is enough or to reach higher if capable. I just hope despite heartbreaks and challenges, we shall not stop trying.
we are all a work of progress, we can do it. even if at times we drained, we'll be okay. let that dream of your be alive and insyaAllah, you can achieve it anytime soon.
:)
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