Petals

both petals are from two different roses, hence, two different guys.

in 2016, i kept this petal knowing that it is going to be over and i had always had a thing on wilted flowers since then.

we cant count heartbreaks.
but we remember how we feel. though
some might still stings,believe me; it can
fade within times.
losing my first petal was
the longest most purest heartbreak now that i
thought of
To lost a company, to now have a dead
dream since he's gone
and trust and hope had learned it's
lesson and built itself a wall.

it hurts.
but eventually, i did found myself.
I get to know my second petal a little more slower that i ever took the time to know someone ever in my life and he was never not kind to my heart. he was charming and loving though there's still flaws, he taught me to love myself first despite him and everything.

to love him is a comfort to the heart.
but the reason i kept the second petal was because it almost ended, too.

I almost lost again. :)

I wrote this post to remember this significant feeling. To let myself feel lost, empty and sad but undeniably thinking that its beautiful.

Both petals made me feel lost.
Though one had gone, one stayed wilted.
I was sad and i will be sad again no matter how due to an inevitable heartbreak.

But hey, love will come around as it was always there. it was there before even heartbreak. Let yourself to allow sadness, and bloom wisely after.

its not wrong to feel sideways. also, dont be afraid to be okay, live you happiness. thinking that you'll be hurt again is unfair to the heart.
Treat your heart with kindness. Everything will happen beautifully as you think it will be. to lost and to love..